I want to be mean

Question to the world, to anyone who is out there:

Have you ever be so nice that you feel you want to be bad?
Because that's how I feel right now.
I want to thrash, cry til I scream, scream til I cry, crush people's dreams, scratch them with words til they bleed, crunch their heart and soul because I felt so damn terribly sick of being nice.
I want to say nasty things, be mean, be awful til I smile again.
What do you get from being nice?
Nothing,
You are supposed to feel good?
But if being bad makes me feel good?
I feel terribly bad for saying that.
Maybe by tearing people apart, I can tear myself apart.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe.